I Finally Found My Rainbow

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This is a short, but oh-so-sweet, post. I’ve posted about my previous miscarriages and shared a little about that journey. It’s been upsetting, maddening, and downright sad at times. Sometimes you just need some good news. I finally received mine on March 15th. I’m pregnant, and this is the furthest I’ve made it in a pregnancy. Coincidentally, Mother’s Day marks the beginning of my second trimester. I feel like I finally found my rainbow through the rain.

I am feeling pretty elated, as one might imagine. The fact that this is a milestone pregnancy, time-wise, for me is incredible, but when I first saw that positive result, I wasn’t as excited. My first thought was, “Here we go again.” That sounds awful, but I think that was just a way of my brain attempting to protect itself from another potential loss. I kept the news very quiet, so as to not have to answer a ton of questions or give explanations if another miscarriage were to happen. But naturally, there was a slight excitement underneath all that cautiousness.

As time seemed to crawl its way to my first ultrasound, my anxiety and prayers increased. I’m pretty sure I sounded like a broken record to the Big Man upstairs. You know what helped calm me down? Finally hearing my baby’s heartbeat. That was the most incredible experience I’ve ever had. And my head didn’t know what emotions to emit. So, I said something very poignant and classy like, “Holy crap! That is so cool!” through tears. My anxiety is a lot less as this pregnancy progresses, but my prayer count is just about the same. I’m trusting fate and God more as I truly believe that all of my broken-record prayers worked to bring me this gift.  

This baby is already so loved, and I can’t wait to experience all the firsts (good and bad) that babies bring! More updates to come as my rainbow baby grows.

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Raised outside of Orlando, Florida, redheaded Melissa is an avid sunscreen and shade enthusiast. She left Florida in 2007 to serve in the United States Air Force as a radio and television broadcaster. After basic and technical training she was stationed in Illinois, South Korea, Italy, and Alabama with two deployments to Iraq and Afghanistan sprinkled in between. In 2013, she met her husband Gregg and in 2015, they were married. This gave Melissa the new title of Bonus Mom to Gregg's daughter, Isabella. That year also welcomed Melissa back into the civilian world as her eight years of service came to a close due to medical retirement. She has called Birmingham home for the past 3.5 years. Shortly after they were married, Melissa and Gregg found themselves wading through the confusing and emotional world of miscarriage and unexplained infertility. They excitedly welcomed a son in November of 2017 after two years of trying for a little miracle. Melissa dedicates her extra time to spoiling their three rescue dogs Ginger, Typsy, and Bruno. She also fosters dogs before they find their furever homes.

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